Wednesday, November 4, 2009
the halloween party was speechless. haha. it was definitely memorable! the bbq was ruined since it rained but the best part was when some of us jumped into the pool! haha. since my costume was soaked from the rain, i juz decided to swim in them. haha. awesome experience=0 then we also bbq in the rain. lol. anyways. ended up sick the next few days. sore throat and headache and wat not. and TPC was a total screw-up. haiz. life isn't well for me. it sucks. BIG TIME.
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my life is now a fuckin hell hole. i dun even wanna go home coz i dun wanna see their faces. i nvr thought our relationship would turn like this. i haven't spoken to my mum in like a week. not coz I dun want to, it's coz SHE doesn't want to. and obviously my dad will always side her. they make an awesome ass pair. such screwed up ppl. some ppl might say i'm a bitch and wat not for talkin abt my parents this way, but seriously speaking, if they were to live with them durin this period of time, i think they'd hav run away from home by now. which i'm contemplating everyday. i can't even breathe when i'm at home. know y? coz their attitudes are suffocating me. they're takin away all the good in my life. my dad has been shoutin every fuckin day. i mean it's our bad habits and faults for behavin this way. not bathin straight after we come home, not plannin our time properly. but hello?! it my fuckin life! i can do wat i want with it. and i know countless of ppl who hav the same problem as me but their parents dun give them hell because of it. so y r my parents like tat? it's coz they're juz ******* and ******* and should juz disappear from my life. now i understand those kids tat hav family problems and run away from home. but i'm not takin drugs or stealing or killing or smokin or having underaged sex right?! so y r they so fucked up and angry? and my dad said last night, when he was shouting at like 11pm like a mad man, "this is your last chance, u'd better not FUCK with me, u both(ammy and me) can go and cry all u want tonight, cry urselves to slp coz i'm gonna make sure tat i make u two cry a lot more if this happens again."
how the fuck can u talk to ur daughters like tat? and i mean DAUGHTERS. he nvr spoke to my brothers this way. even when my brother did something bad and got canings in school. huh. and trust me, he's said worse things. every fuckin night manda and me hav to cry ourselves to slp. and seeing her hurt is really fuckin pissin me off. i'm fuckin angry and agitated and so fucked up tat i'm fuckin close to snapping. trust me, if someone were to agitate and annoy me just a little bit i'm gonna fuckin snap like a twig. hah. i've used like countless of F words already. in this paragraph alone i've used 7. wtv. the only reason y i know i can't run away from home is coz i hav O level chem SPA on friday. maybe after tat. who knows.
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