Thursday, September 17, 2009
things hav happened.
secrets hav been told.
the airport trip yesterday was meaningful
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they hav parted. it's shocking and extremely heartbreakin. it still seems so surreal, i guess the fact of the break up hasn't sunk in yet. now all i hope for is tat she'll be ok. tat he'll be ok. tat they'll be able to carry on with their lives.
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F. , juz know tat we're here for u. i know u know tat. the past few days hav been the worst days ever, and it was really heart breaking to c u like tat. but everythin'll get better in time and we'll be with u every step of the way. look at wat i wrote in tat poem, it's from my heart and it'll help u. like we said, u can miss him, support him and wait for him, but u must try to reduce it. like wat u're doin now. coz the circle of life nvr stops spinning and though bad things hav happened, life must go on. we'll be with u anytime u need comfort. so i juz wish for u to feel better soon and smile again=)
you can cry, you can grieve. but all in all, you must live.
to the other F. , i had no idea u had gone through tat. my heart really goes out to u. but we've said wat we had to say at the airport so i hope u feel better=)
to I. , i've said wat i hav to say already tat night. i hope u feel better too. though u say u're fine, i can't help but think u're not 100% fine. so yeah. gd luck with ur studies too=]
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this week is packed. i dun hav enough time for anythin. yesterday i was juz so overwhelmed by everythin. so when manda and me were kinda argueing with my parents abt some sensitive stuff, i was like tearing and shaking, coz i was tryin so hard not to cry. i wanted to talk back but decided against it. so later when we talked to my mum again, i was keepin silent most of the time while manda and her talked/argued. coz when i talked, i started tearin even more. so i juz decided to shut up and try and calm myself. then my father came and talked to us, obviously i teared even more. they totally misunderstood us. they thought tat we 'hated' them or somethin coz of the issue we were talkin abt. but we didn't. maybe we sounded like we were angry with them but we truly weren't angry at them. it was probably due to the stress of everythin tat we sounded like tat. then i went to the toilet to bathe and i just broke down. wat was even more stupid was tat i had to like be silent and stuff so tat my parents wouldn't hear me cryin.
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today woke up still feeling down and was down in school too. but eventually the day got better. bugis-ed with ammy, fai, brenda and ernie. brenda was so hilarious man. and today's the first time i went bugis street! it was ok. but really wet. haha.
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i'm still brooding over the same problem again. everytime i want to talk to someone abt it, i eventually decide against it. y? maybe i'm too afraid to open up or maybe coz somethin always happens and it makes me unable to talk to someone or maybe coz i juz dun want to tell anyone. i really dunno. i've been dealing with this problem for ages and ages. at first i'll get so freakin emo abt it, then somethin'll happen tat cheers me up and gets my mind off of it. but then soon after, somethin else will happen and i'll be reminded of the problem all over again. the cycle juz keeps on repeatin.
Labels: broken hearts can be mended and pain heals with time. tat's wat u think.
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